Thank you all, so much
Aug 26, 2013
After my last post, I received so many Facebook messages, comments, texts, phone calls and emails. Every one of you said exactly the right thing. Thank you for not being too shy to reach out to me.
I'm sorry if I didn't respond to you. I was completely overwhelmed with gratitude and humility. As the messages kept flooding in, with many, many mentions of prayers for me, I felt like I was getting a giant hug from this extensive and amazing support system that I didn't even know I had.
Because I'm a writer I was able to share my pain with you, and at a point on Thursday I felt guilty for being the recipient of so much cherishing. Not everyone gets that, and I don't deserve it any more than anyone else does. I mean, there were people from middle school who were telling me they loved me. Who are you people?!
It just goes to show me that God is on the throne. He has brought me in contact with the best people throughout my life, and He gave us Facebook so we wouldn't be dum dums and not stay in touch. Thank You, Lord Jesus, for loving us so much.
You are all a part of my healing process. Your prayers worked. I no longer want to die. I am so happy to be alive and excited for today and what it may bring. I am still crying a lot when I am alone, but on Thursday night, after turning down at least 15 people who said they were coming over, I finally gave in to Joanna and found out that being with people is the BEST medicine. Friday night my friend Grace brought me actual nutritious food and salted brownies. Saturday Anne and I went to a Redskins game and that is another blog post altogether. Sunday Jamie brought me Baja Fresh, wine, ice cream, melatonin and the latest US Weekly.
This is the way to survive a break-up. Now I know.
To "Anonymous" on my blog -- your words meant more to me than you will ever know. But then again, they were written with so much obvious wisdom...so maybe you do know. Particularly, you mentioned he was rude, which I didn't agree with at first. But then I thought about it, and you're right -- he was RUDE!
Thank you for your insight on his relational issues. I fear you are correct, and I fear more that the people around him will not be frank with him about this. If you are who I think you are, I hope you will have a sit down with him and slap him across the back of his head, because he royally deserves it.
And this line: "Don't wait for him to come back." That's a tough one. But, yes ma'am, I won't.
Hindsight is 20/20, and I have never understood that saying more clearly until now. Grace reminded me that, years ago, I went through a truly terrible, heartbreaking time in my life that involved a boyfriend and some other things. She told me, "You said on your blog that you'd never really known what heartbreak was until this happened, but you and I both know that's not true." And she was so right. It took me four years to really heal from that, but I don't think it will take as long this time.
I am going to be okay, but y'all already knew that.